… is amazing.
And I mean THE book. The final copy which you are proud of and pleased with and willing to put out there in the market. Sure you get proof copies, but they’re just not the same because you know there’s something incomplete in it, and your happiness is marred by your desire to fix all the things and hold the final version in your hands.
I finally have that version. I’d been checking my mailbox for the last few days, and each time I found it empty I would get a sinking feeling in my chest. But I have it now, and I’m so incredibly happy!
Isn’t it awesome? I love it!
I won’t claim to know what a mother feels when she holds her baby for her first time, but it kinda feels like that. Well… at least to me. My friends know that I think of my books as my children, and using that analogy, Puppet Parade is my first child, haha. I still can’t believe that I made it, though. I mean… flipping through the pages, reading bits and pieces from every chapter, it’s rather surreal to think that I actually wrote it.
However, as I come closer and closer to the release date, I can’t help but feel anxious. Up till now only a few people have read it, and even though I’ve received positive reviews from every one of them, I have to wonder if I’ve just been lucky. Sure there will be some people who will hate it and call it the worst book ever, you can’t please everyone after all, but the thing is that I’ve only been used to receiving positive reviews all my life, so I have no idea what I’ll do when I receive that first bad review. I suspect I’ll probably wallow up in self-pity somewhere for a few days, haha. Authors can be so incredibly vain sometimes, and I’m definitely no exception.
I guess I will only find out after the book is released, and that should be soon! I hope you’ll read it when it finally comes out!