Yes, you heard me. I don’t want anyone reading the book I worked so hard to write. Not indefinitely, of course, but at least until I correct my horrendous writing mistakes. There are two reasons I avoid reading my books after I’ve published them: 1) I don’t want to find that I’ve missed some awful typos (like writing “nut” instead of “but), and 2) I don’t want to see how bad my writing is.
When they tell you that a writer is their own worst critic, they are definitely not joking. Seeing the words I wrote nearly three years ago makes me cringe. Heck, seeing the words I wrote five months ago makes me cringe. On one hand, that’s a good thing because it means I’m improving and my writing is becoming better and better, but on the other, it means I don’t like anything I published in the past. I’m almost embarrassed by it. I look at my words and think, “Oh my god people will judge me as a writer based upon this.” Of course I’m forever grateful for the people who praised my book when it made me so insecure, but now I almost feel bad for not giving them the best possible product.
I’m not going to take Puppet Parade down. But I am definitely going to go over it with a fine-toothed comb. Not too fine a comb, though, because I don’t want to cheat the people who’ve already bought it, but the second edition of this book will hopefully have less mistakes and better writing, and I won’t change anything in the plot. I will be publishing through Lightning Source, probably – it’s a book distributor I recently found who offers much better options for indie writers, and I will be sure to blog about it soon enough, because I know my fellow indies are always looking for something better.
I know several of my followers have obtained copies of my book one way or the other. To those who read them and gave me their honest, favourable opinions – thank you so much. To those who haven’t yet, I ask you not to read it. Of course, you are free to do so, but I would rather you read the better version. Once I have the revised edition I will make it available for free to all my followers for a definite period of time, so you’ll all be able to pick up copies then. Hopefully soon. =]
How do you feel about reading your past work? Have you ever taken down something you’ve published and taken it apart because you thought it was cringe-worthy?