And it’s daunting.
Every year I say, “Okay. This is it. This is the year I publish my second book.” But I can’t even finish a second book. All my manuscripts are scattered around me, at 50%, 25%, 75%, 40% and 20%, and it’s like a big pile of laundry where I don’t know if I should start with my whites or my darks.
I won’t lie; I’m starting to feel kinda frustrated with myself. I feel like I’ve bitten off so much more than I can chew. I start new projects every other week or month – whether it’s launching my own business, or taking up calligraphy, or marathoning entire shows – and I almost never see them to completion.
But I am not writing.
I used to write a new blog every other day. I used to be able to churn out 3000+ words in one night without any effort. Heck, I used to write fanfics so long they could be full-length novels. I even bought a typewriter in the hopes that going back to ink and paper will encourage me to write, but to no avail. And the last time I tried writing by hand I developed some weird problem with my thumb… which I strongly suspect to be carpal tunnel, but I’m too busy to even go check it out.
I came back two weeks ago from a trip to Europe and opened my laptop eagerly, thinking I’d have a fresh outlook, a clearer mind… but nope. A complete blank. Every character of mine across five books is completely refusing to cooperate with me, and it’s driving me up the wall.
So I’ve decided I’m going to stop trying.
Not for good. Just for a while until I get those juices flowing again. I have a massive TBR pile and I feel like maybe focusing on reading words written by other people will inspire me to write my own. I’m going to try blogging again, if only to keep myself from going to rusty. It will at least save me the anguish of sitting before my screen with my hands knotted in my lap, unable to make my characters see reason.
What was the longest Writer’s Block you’ve ever had? How did you get yourself through it?
Also, this video captures my feelings perfectly: